Random thoughts of a rambling women

Something that has been weighing heavily on my mind. Is how I worry and care so much about what is going on with my children. Is the decision I am making right now going to positively or negatively effect them in the future. Am I doing everything I can for my kids? I do not think this means putting them in a bunch of extra curricular activities and having them learn a whole bunch of talents. I think this means when they are with me, am I , giving them all they need to prosper as a teenager. Make all the right choices. Never look back and think "If my parents would have done this differently, I would have done this."

I take a lot of time and energy into making sure my children are in the right schools. I think this is so very important. Probably one of the MOST important decisions!! When they are not with me I want them to be in a place that works as hard as I do to get them and give them what they need for the future. For those of you who know all the details, you know that this has been quit a journey. It has been a very prayerful one and every year I have felt absolutely blessed for making the decisions I have. Every teacher Josh has had has been an absolute blessing. Perfect for our situation and what was going on that point in his life.

Patrick is goin gto be going to Dual Immersion Spanish next year for kindergarten. We are very excited about this. He is very excited about this. It was a hard decision but one I feel I was definitely guided towards.

I feel so many people I know think I am crazy for the time I put towards my kids education. And quiet frankly it really makes me mad that I get such a negative reaction! Like seriously makes me wanna scream. I know the goal is to not care what others think, but who really does that successfully in their life? I feel what others think does not dictate my decisions but it sure can dictate my mood.:)

My friend Angie says that a new friend is going to come into my life that will have a lot to teach me about what I am searching for in the terms of parenting. OK person! Where are you, I am interested to meet you. To me this person will think it is great the amount of effort I put into my child's education (this is not volunteering in the classroom, that's like an A for effort to me). Instead of thinking I am crazy! Blog readers please post and tell me your stories on how much you care about your child's education. Instead of just doing whats EASY, or CONVENIENT, or allows you to be SELFISH! This has been eating at me for days and I just need some positive vibes coming my way. I need a friend that my kids can play with who we get each other and our kids get each other.

Most things I have needed lately that I have worked on manifesting have come my way. So now I am putting it out there. This is what I need. I have a lot of great friends that help support me in lots of ways. But there is a few ways I feel unsupported, I would like to feel supported in those now. This person I am supposed to manifest, if they could also be spontaneous. Call me up last min and say they are bored and wanna come hangout. They can stop by and I don't care that my house is dirty. And if they dare try to only schedule a play date with my kids instead of just sending their kids over and vice verse. Well then they are just not the right person. Bring back the unstructured part of my life please!

Man this was a good post to write. I started with one thing and let me thoughts go crazy and ended up in a whole noew place. I want more of this please.

This reminds me of a story I fondly look back on. When Trevor and I were secretly dating (not so secret to some). We were up in the mountains with Nate and Allie (our besties/family). We were in the process of making this giant igloo for fun. When I got tired and said, "man it would be fun to go to the beach". They were all, Ok lets do it. So we jumped in the car (so fast that we forgot and forever lost the tripod for the camera) and ran home, changed clothes, and drove with my 2 year old Josh to California and spent the weekend at the beach. Man I loved that weekend. All but the part that I wanted Trevor to let Allie and Nate know we were dating (they already knew) and he wanted it to be secret still.