Why Caleb was early part 2

I was very sleep deprived so I don't remember everything but here is what I do remember...



Sometime after midnight we decided to give me an epidural. PG was so bad they said that the epidural would help at least the bottom half of my body. Every time I have had an epidural I have cried and started hyperventilating. I am a huge baby when it comes to needles that are gigantic and going in my spine!! The epidural did help quiet a bit for my legs. The rest of the night was pretty uneventful, waiting and waiting. One point in the morning I started to feel the contractions, I was somewhere close to 80percent and a 10, but at the rate I was going they thought it would be another 2 hours and so they had the anaesthesiologist give me more anaestisia (booster?) in my IV. Well whatever he gave me was a little too strong, before I was numb but could move my legs a little. Now I could not feel or move my legs or hips at all. At one point we tried to turn me and I couldn't even help at all to life my hips.



A half hour after giving me the "booster", as I call it cause I have no idea what the term would be, they were having a hard time seeing the babies vitals so they wanted to connect it to the top of his head. At this point they find that I am 100 percent and a 10!! Oops, guess they were wrong on how long it would be, too late now, we will just have to deal with how numb I am. About 15 mins later the doctor shows up and checks and says the baby is an inch away from being out. Everyone scramble everywhere to hurry and get set up.



2 contractions later, 9:43am, beautiful little Caleb graces us with his first cry and I have my first of many cries that happen with him in my arms. With my other 2 boys their dad held them first becuase I wanted to start that connection right away, but this time it was my turn. This moment was so amazing for me. I didn't ever say it out loud, because I was so afraid of it coming true, but I was so scared for this moment. I really didn't think he was going to survive. Seriously I have a tumor, Cholestsis (liver), and PG (rash), and I have been having near fainting spells that couldn't be explained. I was so worried that when I had him it would only be very briefly and was so scared of what that reality would be. But that didn't happen, he is here and beautiful and I am so in love with him!



As far as we can tell none of the problems I was having effected his health. He was 3 weeks early and a good size and completely healthy. I pray every night of how grateful I am to have him here!